so let me think of how to word it

Sometimes I do this thing where I mentally write letters to people. And they say all the things I want that person to know but would probably never say out loud. I do it a lot actually. Sometimes it's stuff I wouldn't share because it's not exactly positive, or unnecessary drama. Yet still things I wish I could say. Other times it's subtle ways people make me happy or influence my life. In my head I convince myself that I may actually tell people what I've written in these mental letters. But to be honest it's unlikely. Which is kind of sad. It's the kind of thing that I would try to say but the words would get lost coming out of my mouth. Like there's some weird filter between my thoughts and my speech that prevents it from coming out the way I want it to. Things make more sense in my head.